These demons that you want me to let go
Kept me company when the world turned its back on me
They sang me to sleep; they awaken me with their comfort
They became my reflection when my own shadow betrayed me
Now you say come out of this darkness that I feel safe in
Oh how you can’t see you were one of those reasons
I was introduced to them, my loyal friends?
You say to me I am destined to hell for what I do
I wish I could show you my soul, which is ablaze every second
You said Come to me, I will understand your pain, I will provide you shelter
But only I know, if I let this mask drop, you won’t tolerate my ugly self
You will run like a scared rabbit, afraid to taint its pure fur
So stop trying to pull me out from the place
Where now I have discovered my true self, where I have liberated myself
Let me reside here, ruling who once ruled me befriending who once petrified me
Let me stay because I am not scared anymore… but maybe you will.
It’s been a while since I last updated. It’s hard to form words when you don’t know what to feel anymore with people constantly nagging you to be a person you know you can’t be.
Trying to keep yourself together with people breaking you apart every second is a real struggle and to all those people who are suffering from things, from the demons of their own, I want to say that it’s okay to break, to hide, to accept the darkness that surrounds you.
But never give up and never back down. Fight back and own your demons because they are a part of you but not all of you. Even if it doesn’t seem like it but you are always stronger to fight back. We live in a state of flux, even if things appear the same they never are. Things change, people change. situations change, WE change so it’s too early to give up.
Fight for yourself, even if you are the only person believing in you.